I should be feeling happy. I should be enjoying my holidays. Not dealing with all these. So i am wrong trying to make things right, i think too much for doing my part to clear my doubts. Well i get it, in the future i will not do any of these and bring myself into such a state. Since apology arent sincere, dont do it. It make things worse. I am done with it.
Going round and round
I did my part. Done i mean What happened? I dont know, perhaps i should be mentally prepared. I shouldnt, should i? Just let nature take it’s course, life shouldnt be so uptight. Since i’ve did what i am supposed to. Hate it when it offset my carefree and happy self. I wonder. Thoughts flooding in, but i should enjoy my holidays. I need my sleep. I promise to make this...
We've come a long way since that day
It’s not easy for us to come so far. Happiness, disagreements and tears does play a part in building and strengthening it. I shouldnt even have the thought of giving up. Your efforts, your love. Changes had been made, you try your best to make up happy despite knowing the cold hard truth. You rather take in all those awful emotions yourself and gave me the right to make decision. How silly can...
Nobody knows how much i hate my life now. Hate the emptiness within myself. Not being able to earn my extra income and my grades in this phase now really sucks. Nobody knows the reason behind the hatred. I feel so worthless, never ever so worthless in my life. And sometimes I think I need a doctor.